Tuesday, August 24, 2010

My GSOC (kdm-plasma) status

Well, I have a lot of it done, but still have a lot that I would love to do. Basically to get it into a working state, I have to "port" one (for now) authentication plugin into a plasmoid..which shouldn't be entirely difficult, to be functional that is. Aestheticism and intuitiveness is a different story. I'll have to do all of the above when I can find the time...I have managed to get the shutdown, and unlock dialogs to work nicely. Which involved a little more than one may think..trying to find the best way to have the items laid out to make it look pretty..actually transforming that to qgraphicslayout-ese. I also had to design it so that said dialogs would ask for the root password when needed (obviously the unlock dialog will always have that..but the shutdown one is conditional, depending on the kdm configuration file).

The dialogs kind of..segregate other tasks, from the dialogs themselves. In other words, the "modal dialogs", when shown...will "hide" everything else (technically it switches to a different Plasma::Containment), meaning that you do not get that ugly "dialog z ordered above a dialog/on top of" problem that someone mentioned in a blog that I don't feel like digging up. I like it. It makes the user more focused with the decision at hand.

I would post some (half-baked) screenshots, but I guess I will give them to Lydia so she can post her dot story, when I get an opportunity to do so. So I suppose you could just check dot.kde.org for that, along with updates on the other GSOC'ers

Lately I've been so cramped on time..I've been getting stuff ready for college (before you ask: yes, it was my usual last-minute stuff ;-)

I took and - barely passed my road test. I even did something I have never...ever done before: I set it to Reverse instead of Forwards. So I was actually looking ahead..I only moved a little bit, but still. To be fair to myself though, I'm a very, very nervous person when it comes to..I guess...social events. From a test in school, first day in school/whatever, and many other simple things..or at least, what one would think would be simple. My brain just completely shuts down in these moments. (which is why I generally like the over-the-net approach to talking. My thoughts are more...gathered, this way).

The worst part is, when this happens, I can't eat breakfast at all..if I do I _will_ vomit.. Actually, even if I don't I might. I had that happen yesterday morning, and all that was in my stomach was stomach acids (sorry if you're squeamish).

Then we had a storm (which had a tornado touch down somewhere semi-nearby..although the winds were really strong), which ripped apart our fence and our neighbors' trees (ours were fine surprisingly..mostly branches).


Oh, and the best part?

I've been having horrible headaches for *counts*...I think this is the third week.

Yes. Continuous.

The headaches tend to get *very* bad during the evening hours...and it spikes quite rapidly with no real warning...in fact, the first week I've constantly been tricked into thinking it was gone, as I couldn't feel anything during the first few hours. But then around 13:00 I could tell that it was still semi-there. Then it goes on to being horrible pain right around 18:00.

I've seen two doctors so far, one gave me pain pills (luckily), and the most recent one gave me low blood pressure pills (although my blood pressure is typically low || normal)...the latter pills are supposed to "prevent" the headaches in the first place, since he believes they are tension/cluster headaches, as far as I understand. The doctor doesn't believe that I need an MRI or anything like that. I have noticed that my jaw muscles, neck, and the area on my temple (each side) does hurt. At least it does today...I've had that part only be noticeable one other time during this sequence, though.

Yeah, it's gotten so bad that I haven't been able to bring myself to write code anymore since ... well, just about their onset (which is very significant, considering I always have some urge to do it...in fact, it's usually all I do, nearly all day, too).

Now that college classes have begun, I have to sit through the classes...and receive get homework which I can't bring myself to do...especially math homework. (if I don't want to code why would I want to do math...since thinking with a headache seems to be one of the things that likes to make it worse). Or at the very least, not being able to think clearly.

Wow this entry grew large quite quickly ;-)

I think I'm going to take a nap. In between the drowsy-affects of 3 medications (1 was a today-only pain medication..) and the lack of sleep from school, then the lack of sleep from the anticipation of school...I'm really tired today.

8 comments:

  1. A small screenshot? Photo?

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  2. An important feature for kdm is to have an onscreen keyboard - for touch devices. Have a look the keyboard-applet in kdeplasma-addons if you come to this :)

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  3. @björn

    it's inherent with kdm running Plasma. All widgets are available (well, within reason).

    @anonymous
    Thanks for not reading.

    < quote >
    I would post some (half-baked) screenshots, but I guess I will give them to Lydia so she can post her dot story, when I get an opportunity to do so. So I suppose you could just check dot.kde.org for that,< /quote >

    *sigh*

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  4. Screw kde, see about your health.
    Although i am not medically trained, i would like to take the liberty to express some thoughts. Your complaints seem to be psychologically induced. Dont let yourself be fooled, the condition is just as real and serious as anything with a physical cause. A friend of mine had stress induced headache and had a lot of benefit from ibuprofen to combat the symptoms.
    Again, please do not take my thoughts for medical advise.

    Still i feel like you need to get to the root cause. Balance your life: ask for advise from loved ones (dont take advise from a blog). I feel it is no coinciidence you bring up your social unease. Work with that. I have no doubt you will end up with a group of soulmates, in the end we all do.

    forgive me for being an advise-spamming stranger. I really feel you should just screw kde and go with stuff that matters. At least make sure it is no escapism.

    Hope not to read any more blog posts from you :) Good luck

    Roy

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  5. @snirp

    Thanks, hopefully my life can get in order and I can finally settle down...

    Usually everyone says how going out more, etc. would make the nervousness in those situations, better. But it's a bit like public speaking - I hate it and it hasn't gotten better ;-)

    Actually, the public speaking issue has only gotten worse (I never remember not being able to eat breakfast for fear of vomitting).

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  6. Snirp is right: see about your health! I think it is a good way to help KDE too, you'll give it a good coder in a good health state :)

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  7. I'd suggest the same as the previous posters: see that you do something to improve your life, don't worry about KDE. If you don't feel like coding, don't code.

    I think taking a road test is not a way to train oneself in social situations. You need to get outside your comfort zone, but just slightly, so that you won't panic. For example, you could find an activity where you'd need to meet new people once a while but so that you'd get used to it eventually and woudn't feel so uncomfortable anymore. These things improve slowly so you have to work on it systematically.

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  8. Hi there. What kind of a doctor is that, who doesn't do anything after two weeks of headaches? Sorry, but if we did not find the definite root cause, it's his darn DUTY to do a MRI. Of course headaches are extremely common these days, but they can be a sign of something very serious nevertheless. Let's hope that it's nothing of that nature.
    I don't believe that it's psychologically induced either. It rather sounds like a typical desk job condition, especially because it's okay after sleeping, lying back, and after a few hours of work it gets worse. Of course, I'm not trained at all, it's just that I had similar problems:

    When I was around 19, I suffered from strong headaches as well (my doctor did do an MRI though). It felt like a knife was hurting me between the back of my head and my neck, at the Cervical vertebrae. Sometimes, I could not do anything for days. The cause was a very light Scoliosis combined with weak back and neck muscles and wrong posture (partially caused by the pain, it's a vicious circle). This is quite common for people working at PCs, especially for those doing not so much sports (I don't want to suggest anything here, just saying). It took some time, but after a combination of anticonvulsant medicals, physiotherapy and muscle training it never came back.

    I'd suggest you go see a orthopaedic specialist soon. Tell him that the headaches get worse after a few hours working at the PC (or generally sitting down).

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